somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands.
-e. e. cummings


Have you ever read something so poingnant, or listened to something so moving that you've literally just felt your heart squeeze? like get that ache where you kind of choke on your breath a bit. Sometimes, when you stumble across something so incredibly beautiful, it's hard to catch your breath. That poem makes me feel like that every single time i read it.

Okay, i'm by no means one of those romantics sitting on windowsills of bay windows staring dreamlessly to the outdoors with nothing but blossoms and starry nights on my mind. It's just that sometimes poetry can have this spellbinding effect where the words seem to transcend their limits and become more than just marks on a page.

Wow it's been so long since I last blogged! i've been pretty busy with psp stuff and also applying to hk for spring 2004!! yayee..i'm SO EXCITED! and super duper excited about the possibility of going to france this summer too! i can't wait to get away from berkelely for awhile and go somewhere far, far away where i'm the only person i know...where i can really learn lots more about myself as an individual as opposed to relative to others. I just feel like my life lately has become surrounded with lots of people who are just like me....not that it's a bad thing, because we do tend to be closer to those who we can identify with, but i just think that sometimes it's good to separate yourself from all that you know and try something shockingly refreshing and new, you know? Otherwise, how do we grow as individuals? Haha i sound like a hallmark card...one of those 99 cent inspiration ones. okay it's late and i have to wake up early tommorrow morning, so my bed awaits :). g'night all and reach for the stars~ =)

songs of the moment:
1. jon bon jovi- misunderstood
2. The beatles- that will be the day, love me do
3. Cranberries- ode to my family
4. Erasure- a little respect
5. snoop dogg- beautiful
6. U2- with or without you, stuck in a moment
7. Jack Johnson- Mud Football
8. fly to the sky- yak sok (yes this is a korean song...the one i was obsessed with freshman year when i learned all the words...hehehe =T)
9. Fiona Apple- Criminal
10. Roxette- Must've Been Love
okay the rest are like fobby chinese songs...so ask me if you want to know some awesome blossom chinese songs to download! *wink wink* =P and NO i am not a fob! :(








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