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love n. 1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. 2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. 3. Sexual passion. 4. An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object. 5. A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment. 6. An expression of one's affection, i.e. send him my love 7. A strong predilection or enthusiasm, i.e. a love of language. 8. The object of such an enthusiasm, i.e. the outdoors is her greatest love. Love, hatred, despair, envy, desire, jealousy, ecstasy...how is it that these emotions can inspire such a flux of feeling within us at some point in our lives, yet when asked to put down into words what exactly we feel when we're in love, or in hate, or in joy, we find ourselves at a complete loss for words. There are eight entries for the word "love" at dictionary.com, and none of them seem sufficient to answer my question: what exactly IS it to be in love? The word itself is so overused in our everyday lives (i love colin farrell, i'd love to go with you, i love walks on the beach at sunset) that you would think it would have lost its impact and meaning by now, but for most people I know, myself included, saying "i love you" is akin to giving a part of yourself to someone and not looking back. Once those 3 words are said, the effects are immediate and long-lasting...it's like pushing over the first domino in a row of dominoes that follows the path to the big "C". Yeep, that's right, folks. Commitment. Attachment, predilection, oneness...all those words in the definitions above seem to require the giving of oneself to another, and that's one of the biggest risks that anyone can ever take. When you put yourself out there, when you let someone see who you are in all of your entirety, not just the good, but the bad as well, the nastiest part of you that you keep hidden within yourself for the majority of your life....when you let someone else see all the parts of you, that's when you are the most vulnerable. And maybe that's what love is about. Vulnerability. Because regardless of how much we think we don't need someone, despite how independent or free we may feel in our solitude, we all need some companionship and empathy once in awhile. One of the greatest things about close friends and loved ones is the fact that they understand you without the barrier of words, because sometimes, words can truly be a barrier. They never seem to fully convey the pattern of your heart with the same exactitude as a squeeze of the hand or a shared smile or laugh. Anyway. after all of this extensive babbling, I've realized that you can toss the dictionary definitions, the sentimental gone with the wind-esque rhett butler scenes, the bodice-ripping romance novels...all that you truly need to feel here and now happiness, here and now love, is that enhanced sense of being that awakens your entire spirit, something that you can't describe but only feel, feel, feel , something that awakens every fiber of your being and stirs each of your senses, making strawberries taste sweeter, making the sun shine brighter, making electricity spark with a simple touch. even with all of this deliberation, i still can't seem to pinpoint what it is exactly that i'm trying to say, so i'll leave it for now. =) if any of you ever capture the essence of love (ahem i'm waiting for YOU, lisa, my blogol! =P) please do share. meanwhile, have a grrreat summer! eat lots of watermelon and ice cream and be merry! =P by christine at 10:48 PM ©
thanks to everyone who came out to our party last night...i hope everyone had a fun time and a funner time at truc's afterwards because I sure did! hehe...okay so my big...mr. eric chou...someone who is supposed to take care of me and watch over me...literally DEMANDED that I take 3 shots of bacardi 151...yes my friends...THREE shots...okay and as if that weren't enough, I decided to take 1/2 more after that just because by then I was already too far gone. *sigh*. but i *do* think that I deserve a pat on the back because I didn't throw up! (even though i was given a guided tour of truc's apt so that i wouldn't throw up on her floor~ =X) but yes...OHH...okay so this is also the first time that I've ever thrown a party (not that i've thrown any parties actually...hahaha) where the cops came. but thank goodness the cop was sort of young and amy "maneuvered" her way out of getting written up with her inner magic *wink wink*. so we were saved once again by amy's charms. teehee. =) ok here are some songs that i've been listening to lately that I really like! 1. collective soul- needs, run 2. blessed union of souls- i believe love is the answer (thanks julie! =P) 3. train- when i look to the sky 4. michelle branch- are you happy now 5. beyonce- crazy in love (i don't like beyonce but i *really* like this song for some reason) okay so I was at the supermarket this afternoon...and since lately i've been pretty damn broke (it's so sad really...my money just drains away like water) I have to ration myself to a few items per week (excluding bakery goods that is...those are a NECESSITY) and recently I discovered this jelly drink at 99 that is just heavenly. If they could package heaven in a jar and sell it, this is what it would taste like. it's like juice, but with gelatin inside that you can kind of mush around in your mouth (yes i know that sounds pretty unpleasant but it's REALLY good!) while you're drinking. I'm telling you, it's the best of both wolds if you love jelly and you love juice. ANYWAY...enough raving about a drink...so my point in mentioning all of this was that I was thinking about what i would ABSOLUTELY need if stranded on a desert island. Ah, yes...the age-old what would you bring if you could only bring 3 things to a deserted island question. have y'all ever given this any thought? it's a pretty interesting question if you think about it. And being fickle old me, I can't really JUST choose 3 things. I mean, three is such a small amount when you think about it and compare it to...oh, say, the INFINITE number of things there are in this universe! so i decided that EIGHT things is a good number. i mean eight is really quite reasonable if you think about it...lucky number eight. =) hehe ok i dunno what i'm blabbering on about. i'm just curious what the rest of you guys would bring. as for me...hmmmm...i think i'd have to say: 1. tofu! (this is like a given...i can't live without tofu...i start to go through tofu withdrawl when I haven't had it in a few days...today i dragged richard around 99 looking for places where they sold tofu ready-cooked so i could eat it right then...if i were desperate enough, i probably would have just bought a package and boiled it in water to eat by itself haha) 2. a cd player with a jay chow mixed greatest hits cd inside (because how could i live without my honey jay?) 3. my computer (ok that's a given...i'm addicted to internet hehe) 4. ice cream...and ENDLESS supply of ice cream...yummmie...did you know that i've now become so addicted to yogurt park that i call their hotline on daily flavors...*embarassed look*...the sad thing is...it's like soon going to be on speed dial on my cell phone... 5. pictures of my favorite loved ones (since i can't bring people i guess pictures will have to suffice) 6. diet coke (because i'm severely addicted to it...it must be that saccharine in there) 7. the fountainhead- one of my favorite books...it has EVERYTHING...a love story, an intellectual theory, vibrant jump-to-life characters, and suspense! 8. white rice- yummie. need i say more? plus it has all the proper nutrients for a healthier you, AND it goes with everything...even PEANUT BUTTER! ;) ...isn't it somewhat sad that half of my things are food. *sigh* ok time to study now. have a good summer y'all while i toil away in stinking physics. i HATE lab...HATE it...i hate it soooooooooooo much. ok just needed to share. =) happy july! by christine at 7:23 PM ©
hey y'all...here are some pics from when i went to sd @ the end of school and then from angela's bday dinner at tgifriday's. hope your summer's going well! =) 
heh heh heh...angela don't kill me, but I just thought that this pic was hilarious! you know i love you! =P by christine at 4:47 PM ©
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